I Can Never Be Her…

I can never be her…
I can never have the effect she has on you.
I can never get THAT look you give her,
Or have the satisfaction of making you smile like she would.

I don’t know her.
I’ve never seen how she looks
But I can tell how she looks
By the way you look at me…
I can tell that she’s tall,
With long black hair,
Smells like Chanel,
With light brown eyes,
& skin that’s fair.

I know when you’re with me,
You’re never really with me.
I can tell you’re thinking of a girl,
Who might slightly resemble me.

I can see deep down inside,
You fear that you might lose
The remaining pieces of her.
You’re so scared that you
Might eventually confuse me for her.
So you still stubbornly cling to the remains
& refrain from fully committing to me.

It ended too soon,
That’s why you’re still caught up on her.
Wandering how things would be,
If you never broke up!

I hate how she has a hold on you…
How she can make you wish
I was her when you hold me,
& how you tell me you love me
Then look away…

I can tell that.
She’s the one girl,
Who you love more than me.
You seem to somehow forget,
How much I love you!

I don’t even consider her competition,
Here I am,
Running a race…
Knowing very well who’s gonna take first place!

I know…
For her?
You’d leave me lonely!
Just let me know
If I’m standing in your way…

Truth is,
I can never be her…
I’ll never change myself for an opportunity at love,
For something that Might happen,
No certainty or guarantee..
I won’t fool myself
By telling Me
That you really wanna be with me
Right now.
I’m merely a mirage of the person you love.
The person that should’ve been me…
The person I Couldn’t be.
The person I refuse to be &
The person I’ll never be.

♥ Kamiz

Published by Lotus

I am not a Poet, however, I express myself poetically. I am not a student, but I am studying Financial and Information Systems. I am not a daughter, I am being, who was birthed out of a women's womb, and I happen to love her so much. I am not a sister, I just happened to come out the same womb which onced hosted a soul that now means everything to me. I am not a friend, I am an individual who chooses to let endless hours pass whilst spending presious moments with people I now love. Point is, I'm trying to discover who I am and not what or who I am associated with. One thing I am certain of regarding me, is that I AM HAPPY!

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