Day 41: Silence

Some days I don’t write because I’m hurting.

And that’s been the case for the past 12 days.

Other days I don’t write because I’m so overwhelmed by emotions and thoughts which I force myself do deal with.

So please, excuse my silence, because during these moments, I have no desire to go on.

The pain drains me and pulls me away from confronting my demons and the pen.

I’m so grateful to those who remind me that I am not alone, that they too, are hurting and healing. I truly appreciate you all for reaching out.

During this time of silence, I’ve learned that healing is such a painful process.

Opening up to yourself, and identifying your own toxic traits which you’ve force fed yourself and having no one else to blame but yourself is daunting.

Learning to not only identify your toxic habits, but to make a conscious decision to unlearn them and actually follow through is a mammoth task.

But I owe it to myself and the people whom I wish to be surrounded by.

To those healing and hurting:

Remember, a healing journey is not an overnight stay; it is a process, and it’s often painful.

It’s a journey worth working through, feel free to pull to the side, as often as needed to care for your wounds, healing your heart with other broken parts of you is okay.

Published by Lotus

I am not a Poet, however, I express myself poetically. I am not a student, but I am studying Financial and Information Systems. I am not a daughter, I am being, who was birthed out of a women's womb, and I happen to love her so much. I am not a sister, I just happened to come out the same womb which onced hosted a soul that now means everything to me. I am not a friend, I am an individual who chooses to let endless hours pass whilst spending presious moments with people I now love. Point is, I'm trying to discover who I am and not what or who I am associated with. One thing I am certain of regarding me, is that I AM HAPPY!

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