Mrs Blue Black Purple

She looks at me through blue, black and purple. 

Heavy rings around her eyes.

No ring on her finger.

Mentally enslaved.

Temporary bruises beneath her clothing.

Permanent scaring underneath her skin. 

The colours of her pain have substituted her friends.

He left her to choke.

She can no longer see his face.

She seems to have forgotten about grace.

She runs back into his arms like they’re her refuge.

I never understood the notion of looking for happiness in the same place you lost it.

She can no longer identify love.

Her solitude must taste like freedom.

She down plays her hurt…

Discredits her logic.

She no longer sees her beauty.

She believes loving him, is her duty.

She no longer loves herself.

It’s evident by the way she carries herself.

I watch her from the sidelines, and wish that I could erase every bad memory of hers, but I know those will eventually build her.

She looks at me through the colour of bruises and I hold her tightly because I know I’m the only one who sees this side of her.

And forever I will hold her as tight as I can. 

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Rose Petals & Bruises

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Rose petals & bruises

Love hurts when we lose it 

Deep cuts, black & blue skin

I can’t hide from what the truth is 

I won’t lie, in love? I stay losing

I finally know what colour maroon is 

Because it’s been lingering on my thin skin.

When I close my eyes, he flashes

Coming at me with a full fist & tongue lashes

I wish I could no longer be in love with him

But shooting stars won’t grant it 

I wish I had never fallen in love with him

But fate had already planned it.

I’m hiding from my lover.

Steady chilling in the kitchen counter 

Because he’ll probably hit me with a tennis racket

I never thought a sophisticated girl like me would be involved in a love that’s ratchet.

“I’m sorry I made you angry”

My head hurts…

What happened?

I was hoping one day, I’d tell my kids a beautiful story about what love is,

But he kicked me so hard in my ovaries, so I doubt that will happen.

Then he grabs my arm 

Bending me over 

Annihilating my body sexually.

Then he looks at me 

With a dirty smile

Saying “baby you know I love you, never leave me, please believe me”.

♥ Kamiz